Sometimes it is hard to be "family"

I don't know what it is here lately ... maybe I am just reading to much into stuff... maybe I am just looking for something...

I have wrote a post before about how my inlaws don't make it a priority to visit Lyla...when they do see her it is at church...except for the one exception when they took her and my nephew to the movies...
but she never gets invited to go to Nanny and Pappaws house like my nephew does....she never spends the night at thier house...she never gets time with them to herself....
it makes me sad for her...and it makes me mad...but I don't say anything...it isn't my loss ..it thiers..

But now they are like completely ignoring me....I don't know what we did to be disowned from the family...or if my sister in law being pregnant with a girl has completely erased Lyla ...and hopefully I am completely off base here and reading way to much into things...

but for some crazy reason...you can't deny actions...they don't talk to me...not a hi, bye, nothing!

This morning in church I was praying and crying..none of them prayed with me...

Maybe I am being sorry for my self...but the biggest part of me wants to forget it all and not even deal with the negativity that comes from them....but the small part of me feels for Lyla and wants her to have a relationship with every family member she can...because that is all you have in this world....

but on the other hand....she has another grandma....and my step dad....and my real dad....and my brother...and many many friends....

so what is stopping me from just cutting ties?

Happy July 4th

Happy July 4th!!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! May you eat all the burgers and hot dogs you can...then top it off with homemade ice cream...and finally be able to sit down stuffed as a tick and watch an amazing firework show and be in awe of our Freedom!

Thank you to all the soldiers who have kept our Freedom...we owe everything to you.

Fill In Friday

1. When it's quiet  I blog.


2. I haven't slept all night in what seems like a month.

3. My heart is burning for a closer walk with God.

4. My birthday is in July.

5. In the town where I was born was the same town my daugher was born.

6. Having the self discipline to work overtime to make sure our bills are paid is something I really love about my significant other

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to going to my dad's, tomorrow my plans include cleaning house and laundry and Sunday, I want to finish the laundry!

Lyla at 23 months....

Lyla will be two next month.

Where has our two years gone.

They have slipped through our fingers so fast...looking at old pictures I can not believe how much my own child has changed within the past two years.
Her hair is amazingly longer...she talks like an adult....and she isn't even two yet!

Here are a few things that she is "into" at the moment:

* she loves to play baby dolls...we have to have them everywhere we go...and not just one baby doll...all seven of them! We have to sleep with them..they all have to go potty before bed. It is so cute and if she drops one she is extremly worried about that one baby doll until I lean over to pick it up and put it back on the top of the pile.

* she loves to make her daddy "go nite nite"...she covers him up and makes him lay down...then pats him to sleep...if he gets up...she says "lay down!"

* she is doing great at pottying..she goes to the potty all day at school...and at home...now if we could just get the pooping in the potty on track ..we will go to big girl panties soon..and again...she isn't even two yet~

* here lately ...this has been a new thing...when Gregg or I call for Lyla...she will answer us with a ..."What?"...and not just a regular "what?"...like her momma's sarcastic tone of voice "What?" Her daddy loves that!

* she loves going to church. I love that she loves going to church..she particularly likes the music..she says church..really good!

* at church she is starting to come out of her shell a little bit...she is usually really shy around other people and hangs really close to me or Gregg...but here lately she has been handing out hugs to a few people.

* she loves to play with her cousin Landon...she calls him "e-e" ...don't know why?

* she just went to watch her first movie in the movie theater...her and Landon watched Toy Story 3 with my  mother and father in law. So cute..they said she sat there and actually watched the movie!

* she sleeps in her bed like a big girl..and she has been doing this for a good while now...I don't know what has been happening lately but every night she will wake up and come in mine and Gregg's room to sleep with us.

* when she does come in our room...she tells her daddy to "move over" so she can have room...so funny...she is tired and cranky...but cute!

*she likes to cuddle when we get home from work and preschool...i do too!

* she knows a tremendous amount of her body parts...like her eyebrows, elbows, shoulders, ankles...she is one smart cookie.

* she absolutely loves her Uncle Colton

* and her favority thing to do....is take a shower.

Thursday Thunks

Thursday Thunks: It's a holiday, people!






The TT questions are brought to you by Berleen, the color of Pacific Ocean and the number that comes after 393.



So yeah, it's a holiday weekend. 4th of July... Independence Day... whatever you want to call it. What are you doing on July 5th?
going to work


Have you ever known anyone who has been kidnapped?
my sister in law swears she was...the world is a scary place now a days if you don't have God


Does wiping with newspaper make you a smartass?
no it makes you a gossiper..because that is all the paper seems to be anymore


If someone sends you - or you stumble upon a link that will show you celebrity death photos, do you click the link?
no..that is yuck..and dissrespectful


Do you decorate your computer/laptop?
how would you decorate your computer...like stickers? absolutely not!


You see Bud and his lady out walking in a park... suddenly she stops and kicks him square in the ass. What did he say to her?
I would think he called her the "B" word



There is a cockroach, a tarantula and a mouse in the room - which one do you kill first?
tarantula...those things are gross..
I have got a mouse trap...it will catch that
and if you have a cockroach..you have thousands ..no use in killing that one


Did you know that a hay bale can start on fire by itself? Do you know how?
yes i do know...my step dad has cows...if it is wet when you store it in the barn the hay will spontaneously combust. There is a scentific reason of why..something about anerobic respriation...don't cut hay when it is wet....I warned you!


Kimber calls you - what is her voice like?
happy


Have you ever played Battleship?
yes..loved it!


Days of our Lives paid tribute to Francis Reid/Alice Horton this week (Francis, the actress, died in February, Alice (the character) died last week). She was 91 years old and was protrayed as a smart, witty, funny, loving, always gave the best advice type woman. Wonderful mother, grandmother, friend... many characters (and cast members) commented on how they strive to be the type of woman she was. Is there someone in your life that you strive to be like?
my pastor's wife..she has her hand in everything...she is crafty..she paints...she cooks...she is thrifty...she has an awesome walk with God...very inspiring.


Do you attend parades?
i am the festive one of our family....so yes

If Berleen were to purchase three 10-gallon tubs of the peanut butter that they use at Dairy Queens, would you think any less of her?
no i would ask her if i could buy one off of her


If all the flowers but one kind withered and died, never to grow again, but that one kind of flower would grow worldwide forever, what would you want the surviving flower to be?
a daisy..they are so simple...innocent and joyful