7.04.2010

Sometimes it is hard to be "family"

I don't know what it is here lately ... maybe I am just reading to much into stuff... maybe I am just looking for something...

I have wrote a post before about how my inlaws don't make it a priority to visit Lyla...when they do see her it is at church...except for the one exception when they took her and my nephew to the movies...
but she never gets invited to go to Nanny and Pappaws house like my nephew does....she never spends the night at thier house...she never gets time with them to herself....
it makes me sad for her...and it makes me mad...but I don't say anything...it isn't my loss ..it thiers..

But now they are like completely ignoring me....I don't know what we did to be disowned from the family...or if my sister in law being pregnant with a girl has completely erased Lyla ...and hopefully I am completely off base here and reading way to much into things...

but for some crazy reason...you can't deny actions...they don't talk to me...not a hi, bye, nothing!

This morning in church I was praying and crying..none of them prayed with me...

Maybe I am being sorry for my self...but the biggest part of me wants to forget it all and not even deal with the negativity that comes from them....but the small part of me feels for Lyla and wants her to have a relationship with every family member she can...because that is all you have in this world....

but on the other hand....she has another grandma....and my step dad....and my real dad....and my brother...and many many friends....

so what is stopping me from just cutting ties?

1 comment:

  1. I know how you feel. But you can't force a relationship if none is wanted. I would say, don't cut them out completely, they might come around eventually, but don't try so hard either, they don't seem to deserve it.

    Like you said she has other family that wants a relationship with her, so work on that.

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